Someone Else

If I was someone else

I’d tell you what I think

All the tantrums and the whining

That reminds me of a two year old crying

 

I’d tell you what I thought

Of all those things you bought

Without a reason or a care

And leaves us standing there

 

Maybe if I cared more

I would try to make you see

All the many ways you make me bleed

But I feel it would only lead to more

 

If I was someone else

Someone bold and daring

I would tell you all that I have seen

But I am only me

 

So I’ll watch and look and listen

And try to avoid being caught in the fire

Your world is burning down around you

But you can’t seem to see the flames

 

Hello, everyone. I know it’s been a while. Moving was a nightmare and is still an ongoing process sadly. Despite that much in my life is going very well right now and I am very happy and excited about it. Hope you all are doing well, hopefully all be around more now. Enjoy the night.

Faster

Faster, the wind whispers, faster

Running

Legs pumping

Muscles warming, stretching, burning

Faster

 

Wings unfurling

Embracing the wind

Feathers out-stretched

To touch the sun

Faster

 

I want to run

I’m light as a feather

As free as a bird

I want to go faster

Because I’m finally going home

A New Path

Something new is in the air

Something that must be treated with care

A new path, a new journey

Roads that twist and turn beyond my sight

I know where I hope they will go

But I cannot know for certain

Will this path be long or short?

Will it be an easy and gentle trail

Or one filled with rocks and weeds?

Will I one day find an obstacle on this path

That I cannot pass?

I look around and see no one

No one to walk beside me on this quest

Only a path that may or may not

Lead to the destination I had in mind

There is nothing left me for me here

Where ever I go now

I go alone

 

                I’ve been neglecting this blog, which is an unfortunate, but unavoidable side effect of the current craziness. There are a lot of changes happening now, and I’m not going to be able to get back into my usual routine for a while yet. I will do my best to maintain this, but my internet access might be spotty the next few weeks.

Eternity

Erase the past

It does not matter

Figments and shadows

Chalk pictures

Washed away in the rain

Nothing more

Than an echo of a dream

 

Abandon the future

There is nothing there

A dreamscape of jumbled images

And half formed plans

A land of never-was

And never-will-be

A mirage in an empty wasteland

 

Embrace the present

This is all there is

Jagged edges and sharp blood

Vibrant and bright amidst the darkness

Dancing with shadows and moonlight

On the edge of madness

This is my life

Writing Fantasy

Wars rage

In fire and death

An empire falls

Giving its last breath

 

An empire rises

From the ashes

By will of divinity or chance of fate

Hardened by a hundred lashes

 

Vampires walk the night

Creatures of power and darkness

Always just out of sight

Waiting for that single moment of weakness

 

A werewolf howls

Beneath the full moon

Straight from hell’s bowels

A demon creature of rage and hate

 

A unicorn runs

Across the meadow

Mane and tail raised high

A white banner beneath a stormy sky

 

Worlds are molded

Changed and rearranged

Destroyed, tested, and rebuilt

All within a single mind

Home

Walking down a path of shadows. Following the well-worn steps and moon-chilled stone. High above a sphere of silver light is embraced by the darkness of night. There paths are familiar to me, as familiar as my own heart. I’ve walked these roads, I’ve touched these walls, I know this place. In the darkest corners of a shadowed mind, I tread without fear and know it’s mine. My sanctuary, my shelter, my Home.

Of Wasps, Carpenter Bees, and Coexistance

The rises high above

And out we scurry to meet the day

Grabbing our tools and paint

 

With sweltering heat

And muggy humidity

The going’s rough

 

We persevere

And our efforts are rewarded

But not with completion of our task

 

Instead with views and wonders

We wouldn’t ordinarily see

Surrounded by wilderness

 

Hawks fighting in the sky

And hunting in the trees

Screaming their claim to the world

 

Wasps building their nests

And protecting what’s theirs

Raiding the hives of bees

 

Squirrels play amongst the branches

Falling, flying, twisting,

High-speed acrobats

 

So many lives living in tangent

Connected and dependent on each other

Living, loving, protecting, dying

 

                As many of you know Hope (my housemate and friend) and I have spent the last few days painting the house getting it prepped for sale. It was an interesting, and often painful, little venture. But painting the house is not what I wish to talk to you all about today. I would rather talk to you about the lessons we learned and what we learned about each other in the process.

                First comes the subject of wasps. Our home is covered in wasps and wasp nests. For obvious reasons this made painting difficult. Hope is a wonderful friend, and back when we last lived together, very practical and efficient. Living in this house, where nature often invades the interior and our home is also home to hundreds of cockroaches, dozens of spiders, quite a few lizards, and a couple of frogs, has changed her perspective I think. We’ve become used to coexisting with other living things. So when it came time to paint the house there was a question of how to safely deal with the wasps. For most people the answer would obvious and hardly worthy of debate. Kill them. We had the spray to do it and it was certainly very effective (my dad uses it all the time), but we didn’t. Wasps are potentially dangerous creatures, especially to Hope who has a lot allergies and our terribly unhealthy dog who has even more allergies, but that isn’t a good enough to kill them on sight.

                We developed a system of containment and removal of the nests, that while likely traumatic to the wasps and possibly lethal to the larvae, did not harm the adult wasps. It was a very sophisticated system involving a glass cup and a thick bit of junk mail. It wasn’t very difficult or even very time consuming; it just took a moment of empathy and mercy. We even made a friend by the end, a female black and yellow mud dauber (a type of wasp) who kept us company as we painted. She was making a nest in the brink and she actually seemed to “sing’ as she worked.

                There are other “pests” in our house. Namely, carpenter bees. They live in the wood of our porch, they’re large bumblebee like creatures and are really quite cute. Most people kill them too, because they’re damaging to the wood. That may be true, but they’ve never given us any trouble nor have we seen any excessive damage done. We leave them be and they provide us entertainment with their aerial turf wars. In fact we have our own little ecosystem since the wasps routinely raid the carpenter bees. So by allowing the wasps to live with us they control the carpenter bees. It’s almost as if nature balances itself without human intervention.

                Insects are a much maligned group of animals. In truth though they literally keep our world running. The world’s ecosystem would collapse, possible beyond repair, without them. Just ask the Chinese, they exterminated all their bees, now they have to pollinate all their crops by hand. A very time and financially demanding process. I’ll also tell you a little secret of me, of all the animal groups in the world, insects frighten me the most. Not emotionally, I regularly handle a wide variety of insects and have no problem with that, but on a mental level. Insects are brutally efficient. Of all the animal groups they are the most like us. They create massive societies, build extensive “cities”, they have wars, they have domesticated “livestock”, they have jobs, they garden, they transform the areas they live in, and they make slaves of other races. Only I’m pretty sure they’re better at it all. If the social insects were a little bigger, I think they would be the ones exterminating us.

                However; potential insect world domination is not the point of this post. My point is that coexistence is possible and it works. Just because an animal has the potential to be dangerous doesn’t mean it should be exterminated. Your neighbor is more potentially dangerous to you and your family than a wasp hive is. Statistically speaking, your own family members are much, much more dangerous to you (if you’re female) and your children (no matter the gender) than just about anything else. If you treat your animal neighbors with respect and compassion you can learn a lot about the world and even make new friends. With animals if you leave them alone they will often leave you alone. Today I challenge you to try and make peace with your non-human neighbors.

 

Related posts for peace:

http://abrc-newspress.org/2013/04/29/weekly-teaching-17/

http://knockedoverbyafeather.wordpress.com/2013/04/13/spider-chat/

http://retiredruth.wordpress.com/2013/04/21/let-it-begin-with-me/

Black

Sleek and slick

Framing flashing screens

Of color and movement

A tarish thing that drags you in

 

Onyx, obsidian

Cool, dark caves

Cold air and dripping sounds

Frightening, terrifying

 

Velvet night

Soft and sweet

Gentle breezes and secret shadows

Mysterious and soothing

 

The color of mystery

And deception

Black

 

My submission for the NaPoWriMo prompt, to write a poem about a color. I chose my favorite color: Black.

Black

Sleek and slick

Framing flashing screens

Of color and movement

A tarish thing that drags you in

 

Onyx, obsidian

Cool, dark caves

Cold air and dripping sounds

Frightening, terrifying

 

Velvet night

Soft and sweet

Gentle breezes and secret shadows

Mysterious and soothing

 

The color of mystery

And deception

Black

 

My submission for the NaPoWriMo prompt, to write a poem about a color. I chose my favorite color: Black.

A Quadrant of Awards

So this is a post long overdue, given the chaos of finals and getting the house prepped for sale, I just haven’t had time for longer posts, but I’m going to try and catch-up today. I’ve gotten four awards recently and each will get their own post

 

First up: Image

This award was given to my by the delightful catholicquestionsandanswers (http://catholicquestionsandanswers.wordpress.com/2013/04/12/liebster-award/), definitely a blog to check out for anyone interested in learning more about the Catholic religion also has a second blog (http://societycommentator.wordpress.com/) where she talks about society in general which I enjoy. So now for the rules:

1.  Post the Liebster award graphic on your site.

2.  Thank the blogger who nominated the blog for the Liebster Award and link back to their blog.

3.  The blogger then writes 11 facts about themselves so people who discover their blog through the Liebster post will learn more about them.

4.  In addition to posting 11 fun facts about themselves, nominated bloggers should also answer the 11 questions from the post of the person who nominated them.

5.  The nominated blogger will in turn, nominate 9 other blogs with 200 or less followers.

6.  The nominated blogger will create 11 questions for their nominated blogs to answer in their Liebster post.

 

Eleven facts about me, well here goes:

1. I love nature

2. I hate living in big cities

3. Barnes and Noble is one of my favorite places in the whole world

4. I am addicted to books

5. I’m discovering that I enjoy poetry more than I thought I did

6. I still watch kid movies, just cause I can

7. I think society in general is riding the edge of collapse

8. Vegan chocolate ship cookies are the yummiest things on the planet!

9. I love mythical creatures and create new ones in my downtime

10. I think blogging is awesome!

11. I am impatient for life to get a bit more settled so I can focus on writing in earnest

 

Questions from my nominator:

1.  If you could live anywhere, where would it be? Of all the places I’ve ever been the place I fell in love with most is Alaska

2. Why would you live there? When I looked out the airplane window and saw Alaska for the  first time my first thought was “I’m home”

3. What made you start blogging? I’m thinking about going into a writing career of some kind so I thought I’d give the idea a test run by seeing if I could handle a lot of writing and getting some input on whether I’m actually any good at it.

4. Do you feel your family supports you? Yes.

5. What is your favorite season of the year? Winter, when the world is stark and crisp.

6. What is your favorite television channel? Discovery.

7. Are you an athlete? No.

8. How many friends from high school are you still friends with? None.

9. If you could time travel to any time or anywhere for one day, where and when would you go? Prehistoric earth, just to see what the world really looked like back then

10. If you could be anyone for a day, past or present, who would it be? There is no one I’d want to be other than myself.

11. What do you see as the biggest problem in the world? Greed and corporations.

 

My 11 questions:

1. What’s your favorite animal?

2. If you could go anywhere on vacation where would you go?

3. What Inspires you?

4. What is your favorite activity?

5. Who is your favorite author and why?

6. Are you a city or country person?

7. If you could have a superpower what would it be?

8. What’s your dream job?

9. Why did you start blogging?

10. Do you still blog for the same reasons or have they changed?

11. How do you want to be remembered?

 

Nominations (this will be filled in over time):

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